When was the last time you stopped and watched the seasons change? I mean really take notice..
As I was sitting in my garden this past weekend, absorbing all the Autumn beauty, looking around and mentally preparing myself for a new project I was to start on Tuesday, I couldn’t help but reflect on the past seven months.
After leaving a project I was working on back in February, mainly for health issues but also for feeling completely burned out, I decided to take a break. A break that I knew was gonna be a long one. I needed to start over and to actually find myself again. Because I was feeling very lost within my own life. I was also dealing with a major heart-break so yeah, there was a whole lot to deal with and I knew I couldn’t possibly come out sane out of this unless I stopped for a bit. And I did want to keep my sanity. I thought being 28 is way too soon to go mad 😉
And so I did take the break. I stopped.
I spent a lot of the time out of the past 7 months here in my garden. Reading, writing… reflecting.. setting new goals, finding new ways, finding new purpose. Remembering my passions. And all the while taking notice of the changing seasons.
I was there to see the early spring arrive. I was there to say goodbye to the snow and welcome the first green grass. I was there to see the budding trees and the first leaves appear. I was there to see the trees bloom and fill the air with all the most amazing sweet scents. I was there to breath it all in. Deeply.
I was there when the temperatures began to rise and when the summer took over. I was there hiding from the summer’s heat in the shadows of our tiny chalet.
I was watching the bees and butterflies fly from one flower to another. Listening to the birds and to the buzzing nature. I was there to admire it all. And I realized, life is about so much more..
I was there to notice how the days began to shorten once again and the evenings become cooler. I was there to see the first signs of Autumn. Autumn. My favourite season of all.
I love all the colors of the changing leaves, so radiant, so beautiful. I love the sound of the rustling leaves. I love the golden light that makes the world so much cozier. I love the cool temperatures – the cardigan season! And I love the pumpkins and pumpkin spice everything.
Life throughout Autumn is just that tiny bit more fashionable, tastier and more beautiful than during any other season. And it’s also a foretaste of the Christmas approaching.. (And god knows how much I love Christmas!)
Autumn is nostalgic and brings back many memories. It makes you reflect on the past year (and perhaps not just that), preparing you for its inevitable end.
And with the changing leaves, and the trees finally letting go, I always feel ready to let go too. Let go of anything that no longer serves me. Let go of anything that didn’t go right or the way I expected it. Let go of any regrets.
It’s time for change. New colors. New ways.
Recover. Celebrate. Get ready to start fresh.
And as I am reflecting on this year, on the past seven months, I know I will forever be grateful for this time I’ve been able to dedicate to myself. I do realize it’s a privilege to be able to quit your job and do pretty much nothing for a while. I’ve been lucky to have that chance, to secure myself for some time, and I know not everyone can do that. Although even for me, it did not come without sacrifices.
But taking this time for myself, this time so many people around me would see as a pure waste of time and find it so incredibly boring, was the best decision I’ve ever made.
Yes. My life may have stopped for a bit in a way. There wasn’t too much happening on the outside. But there was a whole lot happening on the inside.
I never felt so at peace with myself. I don’t think I ever knew myself properly before taking this time off. I’ve come to know the person I am and appreciate her. Understand her better. Love her even. And it’s so important to love yourself guys! After all, it’s you with whom you’re gonna spend most of your life, so you might as well enjoy your company 😉
Truth is, I loved every minute of the past seven months. Sure, my life isn’t the way I imagined it and I might have not achieved what I wanted to or hoped I would by this time. But in a way I’ve never felt happier with where I was – or with the person I’ve become.
I was able to take notice of everything around me – I was actually able to notice life. Life wasn’t just passing me by for a change. I was living it. In my own pace and in a way most people would not understand, for them it would not be life, I guess. But that’s okay – it’s my way. And only we know what’s best for us. For some, it could be traveling around the world for twelve months leaving everything behind, for some it can mean to just stop and go back to their roots. Like I did.
Whatever it is for you, I want you to know, that it is okay to stop. It’s okay to take a break on life. Truth is, that break might actually turn out to be a starting point – a starting point for you to finally start living and stop being a mere observer of your own life.
And I am confident that once you’ll come to this realization, you will know how to incorporate all that you’ve learned into your new life. And be a bit less stressed while working on your dreams and getting back to the roller coaster way of life once you decide it’s time.
Don’t let anyone discourage you. Don’t let anyone tell you what is right for you – only you know. Don’t you ever let the world convince you otherwise.
And also remember when everything falls apart it’s because life’s giving you an opportunity to rebuild yourself. To build something better this time. To build what you were supposed to build in the first place.
So here’s to new beginnings! And to the beauty of Autumn 🙂 Enjoy it while it lasts! Sadly, it’s always way too short, so don’t let it pass you by… 😉
For if you watch carefully, if you truly take notice of the changing seasons, you will come to realize life is about so much more..